Being Bipolar isn't EASY

and the Art of Slowing it Down

Math, Mapping & Mysteries

You readers probably think that I should read more and listen to more music… I can’t argue that I don’t have the need but where does the time go? It’s true: I don’t know much about the Mayan’s but I am curious about how the Ancient Yogini’s derived their diagrams & colored their chakras. I certainly don’t watch enough music videos & haven’t seen much* ART in ages and yet you probably would agree with me; that some of us, some of us see things differently and some of us see things the same! Read “The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time” if you want to understand what I mean by that…

It’s been a few weeks, I’ve lost count just how long, but I am still not over the hump! An old friend called me “hyper alert” this past weekend and I started mapping yesterday. I do have a 2.5yr old son that keeps me on my toes & invites me to see his creative world regularly but the funny thing is, I’m not the only one operating at full speed; I saw three, scratch that four, people on the street yesterday morning as I was breaking in my new vibram’s & they were dressed in plain clothes but running! One was wearing a scooter helmet?! I got a good laugh!

But that’s not where it started; it started earlier when my husband played a bit of Adele’s “Live at the Royal Albert Hall” on Sunday night. He merely pointed out that she was barefoot and her incredibly supportive audience & voila I was catapulted back to the days when I walked 18th Street, shoes in hand…

Then the following morning a woman was in my lobby wrapped in a scarf that looked like a skirt that I bought for a very special friend’s post wedding celebration. It reminded me of an incredibly HIGH period of my life and the intentions that once consumed my every activity. It was a beautiful collage of colors (or so I like to think): an animal-esque print in purple, pink & orange! She had a pleasant, inviting, smile on her face and showed a liking for my un-brushed hair & gym skinnies. I didn’t see the red flag… instead it made me ask “Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements even if it leads nowhere?”

The point is that although a few minor things have crossed my purview in the last 48 hours; I’ve been thinking that credit is really due to the mother of all Creators, the master of Design; the Universe. I know that many of you will agree with me again here: it’s an amazing place & my small little world is filled with the “Chinese” that cannot get their fill of their electronic interfaces that keeps them feeling well… well-connected to it. (I fit in, in Macau, but that’s beside the point.)

 At the end of the day (no pun intended) I need to finish the multi denominational Altar that I started for our family & start starting my day with a goal again. I think I am ready for it; I am more realistic and have a new and improved stable perspective. When I die, I would like to be known as a person that appreciates life’s beauty… One things for certain; it’s probably a good thing that I don’t drive anymore. I don’t need to listen to the radio – certainly not today!

* I stress “much”; I have been to Singapore recently, the Architecture is amazing, & I do see everyday things that have been created by involved conscious people but I don’t give them much credit anymore & that’s part of the problem – I’ve put blinders up, sadly I just ignore much of the “stuff”.

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